Had a lovely anniversary date with my honey at Roy’s last night! It was filled with cute surprises! & After dinner I surprised him with a gondola ride at the Venetian ! Best. Anniversary. Ever.
First love never dies <3
01/06/06 & 07/10/11
I know we fight. I know we argue over stupid things and those just happen to be what we contemplate before we go to sleep. We stress out because we wonder if things will work out.We wonder if the other is goin to give up and quit fighting. Promises are broken and trust is questioned. So much bullshit that we put up with. But in the end, I know that it will pay off. In the end, we will come out on top and things will become better. I keep my faith because I LOVE YOU and regardless of the drama, in the end yes, you are worth it.
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Make love like your heart has never been broken into a thousand pieces. Make love with no intentions or ambitions. Make love like you have nothing to hold back, as if your entire soul is open to the other person. Make love like the world is going to end tomorrow and this is the last time you will ever hold someone. Make love as if time has frozen and every second becomes a lifetime’s worth of ecstasy. Make love like nothing else in this damn universe matters.
My one year anniversary surprise for him. It’s amazing how fast time flies.. I love you Chris.
Summer after sophomore year was when I met him. Johnson. It was the year that changed my life forever. Who says learning all the great things comes from going to universities?! I know I learned a lot from the moment I set eyes on him. It was weird, seeing him for the first time. I was not interested at all; not even the slightest bit. I was interested in so many other guys, it was ridiculous. I thought it was going to be my year to be free, to live like I didn’t have a care in the world. Well besides school and dance. I was into myself. Texting, calling, IMing guys just to flirt. I remember how fun it was to go on little walks or dates with guys just for the hell of it! I just didn’t know that it was the kind of fun you could not compare to the feelings that he gives me. Yes, that is right! FEELINGS! Not just a feeling, but feelings that are too great.
He was a friend of a friend at the time. The first time I talked to him was not what you would call a nice acquainted “hello.” It was more of; “hi” “(no response)” “HELLO” “awkward wave.” Even I could tell he was not interested as well. Little did I know, he already had a girlfriend and I knew her! How could I miss it right?! I started hanging out with some of the seniors more often. We would go out together and get some drinks. LIFE WAS FUN for a sixteen year old! Now in high school, I wasn’t very popular with the girls. Not that I was some kind of whore, but I just felt comfortable around guys. They seemed like a lot more fun when it came to my sarcasm and randomness. I was not too much into all the makeup and dressing up kind of stuff. Dave and Ken were so cool back in the day! I have to say, even though it’s cute that they have girlfriends and everything, they take a lot more things seriously. Well, now we all do. BUT in high school they were close to being my best friends.
The day I officially met Johnson, my friend Agnes showed up to my dance practice and told me to tell my aunt not to pick me up because we had a ride home. She introduced me to Johnson and said he’s going to my house and that Dave and Ken were already there. I was kind of confused and shy at the same time, but if he was Agnes’ friend, he can be mine too. When we got to his car, it was pretty cool. He had a Hyundai Tiburon; not fast or fixed up, but I didn’t know anything at the time about cars. Agnes told me to sit in the front seat, and of course I didn’t refuse. I like sitting in front seats! Well our first conversation was about how it was okay that we just met and I was spreading all my sweat all over his car from dance practice. He made me laugh, of course. As a girl, I judged him. On everything. I didn’t like his hair, his style, or the fact that he was Chinese. I am not racist or anything, but I was single and seriously ready to mingle, but I didn’t want to talk to Chinese guys since I was thinking of getting with a black guy or filipino.
At my house, Agnes had to leave early, so I was left with the guys playing pool and just hanging out. It was pretty fun and chill, so we started doing it more often until his girlfriend started complaining that he was coming to my house a lot that she was suspecting that he was cheating on her.
I still was not that close to Johnson since he did have a best friend and a girlfriend already, so I knew my boundaries. Although I did develop some feeling. A feeling of attraction. Not a feeling of any kind of relationship. During a beach day, I even asked my best friend at the time that I started feeling like I was actually attracted to Johnson, but she told me it was not right, so I left it alone. About a week later, the group and I had just gotten back from meeting up at school. Even though they graduated, they still stuck around. We were waiting for everyone to decide on what to do, so Johnson and I were just sitting in the car. He didn’t look too happy. In fact, I even felt his sadness. I asked him if he was okay, and immediately, he said, “yeah, I’m okay but a little bummed”
"why?" I asked.
"I broke up with Steph last night."
Once he told me that, I was sad myself. I don’t like seeing friends in a sad mood. It just makes me sad. So I made it my goal to lift up his spirits, and surprisingly, I succeeded, but not everyone approved. Because he told me about the whole break up, I kept trying to make him laugh or just smile, but our friend Shinri was not liking the fact that it looked like I was trying to get with him, which I wasn’t. I let it go for the time being and continued just focusing on cheering up Johnson. A few days later, I tried inviting Johnson out to the mall just to hang out and grab something to eat, but we ended up going with Dave and Ken as well, which was fine. This was when I knew I was attracted to Johnson, but I wanted to give it time since he did just do through a breakup.
The mall was okay, so the guys and I went back to my house to hangout and watch a movie. It was fun! We laughed, ate ice cream, and joked around. Dave and Ken left early to drop off Steven since he had a curfew. Johnson asked if he can stay for a while, since he wasn’t that tired. I was okay with it. After all, my parents didn’t tell me my friends could only stay till a certain time. So Johnson stayed.
We talked about school and our day. Wasn’t too entertaining, but I liked it. He turned the channel to Jackass. I was never interested in Jackass. I just didn’t care about it, but he made me laugh at it! We had two couches in my living room at the time. I sat on the little one, which I also called “my couch” and he sat on the long one. He asked me to sit beside him, but I was shy so I told him no… So he sat with me instead, and then I moved and he followed.
I gave up and stayed beside him.
He put his arm around me and let me tell you, I got the goose bumps! He asked me to look at him, and I was already smiling! He tried kissing me! I was not looking for a relationship, so what the hell? was all that I was thinking! I teased him at first and dodged his first try, but when he tried again, I couldn’t resist. Teenage hormones were hard to control.
We kissed twice and then decided to make out. I’m not sure who made the first move to make out but I am sure that he initiated our very first kiss.
As we were making out, I made my way on top of him and slowly grinded my body against his. It was a nice feeling. I asked him to not mention what we were doing to the others since I did not want to get into a relationship and did not want them to think that we were going to get together since there was drama between Shinri and I. We decided we were friends with benefits! I was satisfied at that point. My mom, however, walked in and it was 2 in the morning and she explained that it was late and he should have left a long time ago, so we had to say good bye. I walked him out and he gave me a nice long kiss with some tongue to end our night. I was crushing, but kept telling myself that I was not ready for anything.
The next morning my dad had explained that I was grounded for a week since I had him over so late. I was allowed to use the phone, but no friends. I called him around 10 in the morning and explained that I couldn’t go out with him to meet up with everyone else because I was grounded. He told me how he felt bad and told me that he had a crush on me. I was pretty happy to hear that, but I explained how I was not looking to be in a relationship at the time. We kept talking on the phone and ended the conversation about an hour or two later. It was nice.
Later that night, he called. He asked me how my day was and what I did. He explained his whole day and shared some cute facts about himself. Our conversation lasted some hours and then my mom came in and told me I had to get off of the phone around 11. He didn’t mind, but asked me to call him when I wake up. So of course the next morning, I called and woke him up. His sleepy voice was SO SEXY! We stayed on the phone all day and all night for that whole week while I was grounded. He even came to see me when my parents were at work! We kissed, made out, hugged, cuddled! Wow, I was so sprung. I even felt his boner too… I grew to really like this guy! He told me so much about himself and explained a lot about why he liked me. I agreed to go out on a date with him once I got off punishment. We even named the day after a song that I sang to him. We named the day, “Honeybee day.” This was going to be the day that changed everything.
On our Honeybee day, we took out first picture together, ate Chinese food, and strolled through the park. I was very pleased with him! He really made my heart melt. I still can’t believe how perfect he is. Around 7 or so in the evening, we went back to my house to eat dinner there and just watch movies. We hung out in the kitchen with my dad while he was cooking dinner and he asked us if we were dating. It got quiet and Johnson just smiled. I said no, and just left the kitchen to watch some TV. It was a little past eight and we were watching Music Choice and reading the texts that were sent to the channel to show up on TV screen. He then looked at me and asked me if he can ask me a question, so I said sure.
He asked me if I saw myself as his girlfriend, and I said maybe, yeah, sure. So he then asked-
"Will you be my girlfriend?"
WHAT!? NOW?! ME?!; it was all going through my head, but since we were just laughing and telling jokes, I thought it was a joke! So I laughed and said sure!
He looked at me, smiled, kissed me and cuddled me into his chest.
I started laughing and was like, “wait, are you serious?!”
I already explained to him that I was not looking for a relationship, but he was so perfect, and so of course, I thought… YES!
We then made it official. WEDNESDAY JUNE 9, 2010. The first day of our forever.
Since that day, we have had our ups and downs. Just like any other couple. But we have fought so hard for each other, cried, screamed, you name it. We are meant for each other. We are best friends and I would not change anything. Now, three years since our Honeybee day, we have come a long way. He is my all, my everything.
Till this day, I am glad I gave up and stayed beside him.
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I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you’re the one I love, and I can’t let you go.
My husband is deployed right now, and for the next 11 more months. As hard as it gets I know what we have, will last forever. I love you John! More than anything and everything, forever. <3 I can’t wait for you to come home!
i can’t tell you how much we’ve been through up until today. every minute was worth it though, because it led us to where we are now. there’s absolutely no place in the world i’d rather be than right here, with him. here’s to the last three years; here’s (hoping) to spend the rest of my life with him.
My friend asked me once, “Ate (big sister), when you miss someone so much, and you can’t do anything to be able to talk to him or even be in touch with him. What can you do to at least lessen the pain?”
I didn’t think twice before answering: “I’d like to say it would be best if you put him out of your mind, but that’s impossible. And even if you keep yourself busy, kahit papano, nandyan pa rin siya eh, nangugulo pa rin sa isip. (for some reason, he’ll still be there, messing up your mind.)
So I do the opposite. I think, really think, about all the times we spent together because when I remember, I relish those moments, reliving everything - be it a sad or happy memory - because just the thought of him sends me flying.
I’ll think about him so much until I don’t miss him anymore because it would seem like he’s right there with me.
Then I’ll just wait for him to come back to me, so we can start making new memories for me to not-miss-him over .