I’m really craving your kisses…
I’m the original owner that created this about 3 and a half years ago. But apparently some of you never even knew that my boyfriend took over a year ago anyway, so this probably doesn’t affect anyone very much.
World Spins Madly On - The Weepies
I like you;
I like kissing you as I revel in the tenderness of your lips. I like studying the finer features of your face; the arch of your eyebrows as you flirt with me, the way you purse your lips as you’re reading, the way your fingers twirl through your hair as you squirm after I compliment you, the gentle slope of your nose and how it scrunches up in the cutest way when I say an silly joke. I like getting to know your quirks and habits, no matter how small or insignificant they may seem. I like exploring your every curve with my hands as we make love; charting a course to your lovely warm wetness. I like seeing you groan as I tease you in bed and then, when I stop the teasing, I like hearing you hiss in that beautiful femme fatale voice of yours telling me that I really know how to love a woman. I was always a man who revels in the small moments. I don’t really care about going fast, I don’t really care about being separating from you from time to time, I don’t really care about most of the obstacles that relationships face. I just like taking things slow, I like living in the moment. And the thing I like the most is that every moment before we kiss time just slows down as the world spins madly on.
“The whole world is moving and I’m standing still.”
One year ago I started dating the love of my life and my best friend. He is now my fiancé and my life has been nothing but bliss since the day our eyes met. #loveatfirstsight #jasonlancaster #deeduarte #goradio
Last Wednesday, the 3rd of April, I lost my best friend to cancer. He was only 20 years old. His birthday was just around the corner. I loved this boy with all of my heart. I can’t just sit here and wait for another loved one to die. This has affected me more than anything ever has in my life. I feel like part of my heart has been ripped out of my chest and shoved in a damn blender. Every day I wake up and reality slaps me in the face. “Your best friend is gone forever.” Justin suffered for a very long time, he is in a better place now, but that doesn’t mean I can just sit here and be content with it. Sit here and feel like it’s just okay for people to be destroyed by their own bodies. I want to do something, I don’t know how much of an effect I can have on people, but that doesn’t mean I’m not going to try. I know what Justin would have wanted was us to do more than hope for a cure. He would have wanted us to start something. I will participate in “cancer walks/runs” to raise money and awareness. I will tell everyone I know to acknowledge the killer that cancer is. I’m sharing this video hoping that just one of you watches it. One person to just give a damn. It could have been your best friend. It could have been a family member. I’m not just doing this for him, I’m doing this because I know it is the right thing. I know I shouldn’t just sit around anymore watching and waiting. I rarely post anything personal, or make videos for that matter, but this means the freakin’ world to me.
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This is my attempt to spread cancer awareness, even if it is just to one person.
A long while ago, i wrote about him here, my crazy bum. And here I am, writing about him again, probably the last post ever about him. After a long time, I met him again. We do still keep in touch, I still look for him wherever I need or thought of him. You probably say that I couldn’t let him go. It’s probably true, I’m not so sure myself. What I’m sure about I would always want to know about his well beings, because he will be a big part of my life. He’s family, at least to me. Then again, most of the time, it was always him who always make me feel better about myself, despite the fact that there are things I couldn’t share with him anymore after all this while. Maybe because I realize that he stop sharing about his problems to me. I guess time really could change things. Anyhow, I met him again but we were not alone this time. We promise to see each other before the holidays end and he chose the last day of it to meet me, with her. It was only a couple of hours on an early morning of a Friday. With her being around, I couldn’t really catch up with him much. All I can do be the funny me, trying my best to not be awkward. As I listened to them talking, I couldn’t help but to notice the way he sees her. The way he played with her hair, how he listened to her talking. It was really nice, I can see how much he loves her. I mean, even with their long distance relationship, they still able to hold on to each other and keep on going. I was waiting for myself to feel envy, but I didn’t. I was genuinely happy for them, seeing them at that time. I guess I really have move on. Maybe that was the real closure that I needed. I did feel that I lost him that day, but again, i think the most important thing is for me to see him happy with her, as for him to chose her over me was the right decision. With that, I thank you crazy bum, and I will still always love you dearly. I can let you go now, but I hope you still will keep me in as part of your life, even just for a little space. Much love, your chubs.
I remember thinking how your smile was mine forever. I swore your smile would be the one I’d wake up to every morning for the rest of my life. The smile I would be walking down the aisle to. And I know you thought so too. I promised I would never forget what that smile looked like, what that laugh sounded like. And although your laugh is the best sound I’ve ever heard, and although I never wanted to let it go, I’ve learned to live without it. And if I can live without the thing I thought I needed most, then I’m convinced there’s another smile, another laugh, that’ll I’ll love even more. And I really hope this makes you mad. I hope it makes you angry. I hope you realize what you’ve lost. And although I like to stay humble, I’m letting you know, you lost a lot. I hope the next girl that’s lucky enough to have you appreciates your smile just the way I did. I hope she notices how you stare at her like she’s the most beautiful girl you’ve ever seen. Because you did it all for me and every girl deserves what you did for me. But the great part of this, the not-so-sad part of this, is that God has someone waiting for me who smiles brighter, and laughs louder. Someone who’s going to love me with no limits. No matter the distance, or the timing, or any complications, he’s going to love me so hard. And that’s something you, a coward, could never do. And I hope it makes you sad. I hope it makes you really sad. I hope you feel what it felt like for me to lose your smile. I hope it burns. I hope. Fire.
in the blue that fills up your irises.
Spinning in my mind, dizzy, cannot find your hand.
Leading on past the wall of least resistance
and all the while surrounded by the ones that grow to tempt us.
Lingering and wanting more, in front of a half opened door,
waiting for you to push, so it comes crashing to the floor.
I’m falling fast beneath the ground, will catch on fire, slowly drown
and resuscitate if you can just hold me now.
Remember how it feels to hold my face in your hands.
There will be dozen of people who will take your breath away but the one who reminds you to breathe is the one you should keep. I love you
my boyfriend has been my rock for seven going on eight months and i couldn’t be more happier! i love youuu dillan!<3