Saying goodbye to Thoai at the airport. I’m going to miss him so much. :’(
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Madness
My boyfie’s absence earlier this month (he represented our country in the World Hip Hop Dance Championships) was indeed, a roller coaster ride for me. He has been always a part of my daily routine and I had a very hard time coping up with the sudden changes. I was full of rants whenever I don’t get a message from him for ages. (Good thing, his friend Noel was always there to calm me down.) But what’s odd is every time he goes online and leaves a message for me, I’d be hyped up as if I was never mad. I know, I know. It was very bipolar of me. Hahahaha! It didn’t took me long to notice that what was happening with me was something. I had a lot of questions like: “Why is it, every time he screws up, I’d still forgive him and be happy again like nothing happened?”, “Why can’t I make myself get even with him? Like make him miss me the way he does with me?”, ” Why is it that he’s still perfect in my eyes even if he doesn’t get it right all the time?”. I bombarded Noel with these questions and he just gave me a short answer. He said: ” ‘Coz that’s LOVE. ‘Nuff said.”. I know I love my boyfriend and that’s one of the reasons why, but what my friend said made me realized something. Love is really madness.
I now have a deeper understanding of the quote ” It isn’t love if isn’t madness.” I thought it was madness just because it makes you feel pain, happiness and different kinds of emotions. I have realized that it is way more than that. Love is madness because you’ll endlessly forgive, give chances and give exceptions for the reason that you still want to keep that person in your life. It is madness because it makes you do stupid things. Stupid things that you have never imagined you’d do. Like when I was younger, I told myself that I won’t be that lovestruck and I’d be really hard and platonic but when Karlo came, I ate all of my words. I am always sweet, mushy and all with him. If I were to meet my younger self, I think she’d slap me. Hahaha! I bet she’d say I’m yucky and incredibly bonkers. Oh well. Lastly, it is madness because you’d take a million risks for the sake of the happiness that love can bring.
Even if it is “madness” it isn’t really negative at all. It taught me something. This madness made me realize that I should be more understanding and patient. Understanding enough to accept that the person that I love has flaws too and patient enough to wait and to never lose hope on him. That’s just how it rolls. When you love someone, you love them wholly.Love is indeed a complicated and an emotional blender but all of us will always look for its confusing joy.♥
Together for almost 35 months now and going stronger! ♥
